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hmm...

11.26.2004

03:00

woke up at 9 plus (pm) after a long long nap...
dun feel like doing anything really...
stoned
for quite some time
and suddenly i got an idea
grabbed my fone
and mass sms + mms
all my beloved rv, sjab, vj, canoe camp frens....
miss all of them..
feels gd after sending them the blessings...
realised tt i have in the midst of the routine studying and miserabl-ing
forgotten to tell all these frens i still remember the gd o days and hope all gd things happen to them..good health and wonderful dreams...=D
to my present aki BUDDIES...not that u r nt as impt k....juz tot it will b a lil mushy as we still see each other almost every other day...hahaha...of course my blessings extend to all these good souls who helped me thru hell every sem...hee....
everyone take care
and pple dun b like me
shower yr frens with luv often! cheerz....hols coming..
and v35..ct rep suggesting a thai trip next may....=p

woohoo

11.25.2004

17:16

relaxed and at ease now....
doing nothing really..
finished the SS paper this morning...
quite glad didn't study...cos it wldn't b able to make it any beta...
hmm
dunno y
i have no mood to type anymore
though i m indeed
happy
relieved
excited
but too tired in sit in front of u anymore..
tell u more another time
incredibles IS good.....
to PIXAR *pat pat*
okiez......going to nua on the tempting bed...
BU....i will c u in a while....will be a little late...so sorry..
tired tired tired....cya

whahahahahahahaha *evil grinz*

11.24.2004

11:00

hahahahaha 2722 over...
now..
philo's over too =D
wasn't too bad...perhaps cos i declared S/U..ermz...yah....
left exam hall after checking thru once cos it was freezing cold inside there..
and didn't have the mood to check sooooo carefully a second round as i was already yawning non-stop from the start of the paper
and of cos also with the thought of gettin' back *earlier*(nt much diff lah) to mug for SS tml..
SS' my worst mod i guess
reeeeeaaaalllly scared...
but guess wad
have been sitting here staring at you since i reached dds
hahahahaha
feel really tired
perhaps cos i didn't sleep well yesterday
mayb cafe latte really can have a little effect on me afterall...
but i am tired all over again now..
hmm...time to get another dose of caffeine...
22 hrs to SS
ahhhhhhhhhhh
really really really really scared
but i m already anticipating the excitement and immense joy i will get tml after i do the 2 crappy shitty essays on guanxi and xinyong....whahaha
hmm..
holidays, i m coming
hahaha
but
hmm....
please dun disappoint me..leaving me lonely and bored
beta make me happy k...hehehehe..
cos joy's a rare element during sem lah..
haha
everyone...
fasten yr seat belts..
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
zooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooom

BiGeeBaBOOM

11.23.2004

10:53

BOOM!!!
the first AR2722 paper was over yesterday
and
BOOM....
i felt this ba boom has blown me far far away
rite into the holidays
enjoying myself
relaxed
sipping (or rather gulping) the yummy caramel mocha with creamy whipped cream
in that small little cosy corner (rite next to the toilets) at coffeebean hol v
chit-chatting with tai tai for almost 4 hrs (add together) i guess
sleeping well
eating well
slacking well
occasionally remembering i will have to do this intellectual mcq on wed
hence flipped thru Berlin's liberty thesis..leisurely appreciating his insights and intelligence....HELLO WAKE UP!!!!! u tink this is a story book ah....
U HAVE THREE MORE PAPERS TO GO WAKE UP....STOP DREAMING...
well...how do u know u yrself isn't dreaming?...study?..for gdness sake we may all be muggin' in this big engulfing dream!....and when u finally awaken u will most probably feel like a big idiot...the sore LOSER who studied so hard in return for all the letters A B C D E or a stupid decimal(!!!) while your fellow long 'awaken' beings watched you slogged on their scrutiny screens...laughing their heads off..

the hokkien song on now...dedicated to all of ya haha...=D

10:43

垃圾车
曲：阿信 | 词：阿信 | 编：五月天
虽然你脾气坏对待朋友又差凸槌又更爱牵拖
佳在你遇到我不爱计较的我算你坏人有好命

我走路你坐车你吃饭我洗碗你被欺负我拼命
若为了爽到你可以艰苦到我因为咱缘分不可散

有你我才未孤单有你的陪伴我才有靠山
你若不爽我是你的垃圾车每天听你的心声

有你我才未孤单有你的陪伴我才有靠山
你若欢喜我是你的垃圾车每天听你唱歌

爱情有影伤肝想到我就会惊亲像热天洗温泉
头晕目暗的我爱到整身躯汗我欢喜又搁甘愿给你快活

10:33

for all fellow pigs...???, ??,??? and KELLY

10:29

...

10:26

chio tai tai danette and tall tall kelly in the bkgrd =D

10:22

hey joooooooolyn...hahahaha

10:18

jooooooooven!!! heee surprise...

10:16

holidays r coming!!!

10:09

beautiful people under a beautiful sky

11.20.2004

18:38

alright...simple is nice..."haveAgReatDay!!"

18:31

i want to go there...

normal?

18:29

things r gettin' back to normal?
i dunno but wld like to believe so...
is there this thing called luck?
without much comtemplation i have always assume so...

ok so spare me some luck and fly me back to normal land

hölderlin

11.19.2004

14:35

May, of life is sheer toil, a man
Lift his eyes and say: so
I too wish to be? Yes, As long as Kindness,
The Pure, still stays with his heart, man
Not unhappily measures himself
Against the godhead. Is God unknown?Is he manifest like the sky? I'd sooner
Believe the latter. It's the measure of man.
Full of merit, yet poetically, man
Dwells on this earth. But no purer
Is the shade of the starry night,
If I might put it so, than
Man, who's called an image of the godhead.
Is there a measure on earth? There is
None.

11.18.2004

00:43

i vow to remember today...my world has changed

11.17.2004

13:38

we have all been stuffed with junk...take care peeps

13:27

kim rae won...for me for me =D

13:23

daaannneeeettttteeeee.....for you

13:21

keeeelllllllyyyyyyyyyy......for you

11.16.2004

09:52

MAYDAY

09:46

THE family...

09:45

heee.....DASH

interesting pple =D

09:26

yesterday went to hol v coffeebean to mug....
interestingly, i met a few really interesting pple
hmm....
there were DT (with a pretty young gal and a chinese guy)
(btw i was hiding at a corner so didn't have to "jiathwee" him)

*jiathwee - a verb tt only studio 7 03 sem1 pple understands...in laymen terms, *siam

a few minutes later, this small built guy walked in, i can recognise him as a PE teacher BUT hmm...river valley or victoria....can't recall....haha.....was with his galfren(i assume) he looks as if he recognised me..but i tot it wasn't possible...so *jiathwee...since i m at a corner anyway..

thruout my stay there, there was this guy sitting ard 5 m away...diagonally..muggin' away (so i assume some nus guy)....the thing that i found MOST interesting abt him was....he was..................
disgustingly engrossed in diggin' gold YUCKSSSSS....

of cos there were many moderately interesting pple who came and went....(well i stayed there for ard 3.5 hrs...so met many pple) these include: 2 loud Japanese ladies, a cute little hyper-active angmoh boy, a bimbo cat-walking in to look for this guy, 4 hip-hop youngsters, a grp of funky (*super short hair) gals, a bunch of super rowdy (*look as if they got drunk by coffee) middleage annoying men and women.....and not to forget the very pleasant and cute service staff...

hmm...den on my way home...one last interesting person...ermz..i juz found the way he sleeps on the bus hilarious....can't describe vividly..but well....funny...=D

bought the coffee bean card! supposed i will be muggin' there till exams....=p

我只能为你画一张小卡片

11.15.2004

11:45

恐惧

亲爱的医生：

关于这样的恐慌，我一直说不出口。
我是一个游泳教练，可以用自由式一口气游完三千公尺，但我却时时都有溺毙的恐惧！我怕水，总觉得自己即将灭顶，甚至在小小浅浅的游泳池里，这样的画面都会不断的浮现。
曾经我救起过十九条落水垂危的生命，却一点也无法挽救自己对于“不断沉沦”的害怕。
写信给你后，我将独自游过一个陌生而美丽的湖。如果上得了岸，我将辞去工作，永远脱离这样的梦魇。如果上不了岸，请你替我永远保持这个荒诞的秘密。
为我祈祷与祝福吧！

善泳却恐水人爱泳五月十六日

e hari raya (do-nothing) sunday...

11.14.2004

19:36

woke up early...
to my surprise my dad was cookin'! wow...
ermz...first time since dunno how many mths or yrs...
well wasn't too bad for someone who hardly touch the wok...hee

den apart fr not-too-bad food, z-monster kept me company as well =p
keep dozing off...
with philo "plato's republic bk 1" held in my left hand,
an apple in my right,
and the light from the CRT tv emitting and transmitted continuously into both my eyes...
so...effectively...light reflected off the notes didn't manage to find the direct path into my eyes...
well..so my left hand didn't move much...e stack of paper not flipped...
hmm....and z monster played an impt role too...taking me away to play with him..once every 15-20 mins...

well tv....hmm....there was this star pageant thingy...it looks chee na and stuff...not really nice and the costumes designed..yucks....but someone caught my attention...my primary sch klassmate, liuyan, was among the contestants..a pleasant surprise, but sadly, she didn't squeeze her way into the finals...the other singaporean gal got a place, but personally i tink her chinese...hmm..sounds to angmoh...heee=)

so z monster and tv...b4 i realise it was afternoon time...more food and more zzzzzz.....
exams r drawin' near and the fear and urgency SHLD have set in long ago..but hmm
perhaps i shld b comforted i felt this GUILT...but the laziness to get out of my sofa didn't help much in reducing the guilty waste of time..

somehow...nt sure how...i finally managed to finish those torturous 33 pgs of arguements...hmm quite fiery ones i wld say...HOW the hell can pple raise their voices over a discussion of the meaning of justice?????? can't believe it.....i m certain i have other worth-gettin'-angry-over-and-pissed stuff to worry about...
anyway
i was swayed abt by socrates or plato, if u like...nt a nice feeling..easily lost in dat big swamp of words...it's definitely a worthwhile serious studying matter....but the conclusion didn't leave me very much impressed...more of generalised crap..heee.....

came to sch...right where i m at now..
to dump the panels and get the 50-bucks-worth survey to do...
well decided i shan't cheat the ans...pple r doing serious research..so well i will obediently go down to bukit batok to find 5 kind-hearted souls to ans them....

hmm juz a last little note to make the blog title more appropriate...=p
hari raya
when i was little
it has much meaning to me
cos it meant great food
laughter
fun
family reunion
and neighbours gettin' together
well
now
i didn't move house
neighbours..hmm only 2 families remained
and relationships have changed
hmm...i m almost 20! so !!!!! 20 yrs spent there
plenty of memories
and definitely plenty of unpleasant incidents
so things have changed
and will neva b the same
dat's for sure
well our malay neighbours didn't knock on our door this morning
a little disappointed
but mayb it saved some formalities' sake stuff as well
but there goes my malay yummy goodies
hmm

hmm
i like watching malay families moving ard together
big families
fun-loving and noisy
and most imptly
they wear the 'family identity' proudly on them
hee...malay costumes of a 'set' hee..nice nice nice
hmm..
nice
=D

hmm...there are some more notes lying in my bag
but guess i m going home! hee..came sch juz for typing this...
but i like doing nonsensical stuff (sometimes i juz can't help it)

oh

btw

changes to the 2722 revision allocation stuff

(once again juz my own little reminder..)

Kelly: 1
Mienhuei : 2
Irene: 3
Guoyi: 4
Danette: 5
Ailing: 6
Ken: 7
Huiping: 8, 9, 10
Elita: 11,12

a note...2722 revision...b positive & mug!

19:30

hee sorry...juz a little note 4 myself...

Here’s the list, let us do the summary of each reading, and maybe put down some points to ponder since they r not testing us on the content but what we think of each reading…

From the E-reserve:
architecture, engineering and environment: danette
from homogeneity to heterogentity: Kenny
types norms and habit in environment: guoyi
forms of flow in art: Kelly
martin Heidegger: Ailing
the paradise paradigm: Irene
Architecture: green history of our time: Kelly
Letters to a young poet: Irene
In praise of sensuousness: Kelly
In praise of shadows: Mienhuei

As for the beauty of materials:

Kelly: chap 1-2
Mienhuei : 3-4
Irene: 5-6
Guoyi: 7-8
Danette: 9
Ailing:11
Ken: 10&12

slightly better state...i tink

11.12.2004

09:41

watched 2046 on wed...

thurs was juz tv watching (though nothing gd was shown)...

fri...now..almost done with the panels, but left the sections in sch comp!!!! =X so gotta go sch...foreva like this can seem to leave that place...

but anyway well it's time to pack and those 'fake' signs of happiness and enjoyment from my desk...and hmm shld take a cab down today, lugging the A1 portfolio to sch...

and well still contemplating if i shld make my way down to peace centre...heee 2 bucks cheaper/A1 u know ;p but...lazy
hmm maybe i shld...den go sumwhere far far away to study...

i have to sort out exams stuff now
more than lost in the fat pile of notes...(fat enough with missing ones)

tink i shld get myself Mayday's 神的孩子都在跳舞 to keep me entertained for the revision...not much time left...buck up!

shopping spree

11.09.2004

22:13

just came back from shopping with my sis

went raffles city's robinson's den orchard john little...robinson's....well cos i had vouchers...whahaha..

den went for sushi after dat..

not exactly very enjoyable cos my sis kept complaining....tired...feet 'suan' blah blah =p

but at least she could hang on till we rest for sushi..hahaha

yet another attempt to escape from work....o_o

but well..........i promise myself to start after this..

i will!

i must!

work hard..study!!!!!!

okiez.....to start the ball rollin'.....getting on to 2722 report and P2 panels now...gambate! =D

memories

14:03

so many pictures
so much memories
...
escape into memories

14:01

the 3 pigs!

13:58

me & joven!

13:55

the first *meal* together...=p

mess

13:54

everything's in a mess.....
well hope it will clear up soon...
hope
hope
hope
btw i m NOT a pessimist..
at least i appear not and am proud not to be...

13:53

...

13:51

together...

13:50

new and old frens....coincidentally...=p

13:48

strangers...who came together for an amazingly short 3-day period....but we open our hearts to each other

13:46

it used to be so fulfilling...